Poetry of a Lifetime

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Out of all my life im thinking
Out of all the friends I've know
They don't turn out to be many
It doesn't turn out to be few
It turns out to be smaller than that

I know a lot of people
But never did I hear from them
I waited many years to be in a place
But it turns out I just want to leave
My illusions were bigger than reality

And because of a mistake I made on myself
I've lost much time that could have been used
Now im regretting the past & afraid of the future
Seems like yesterday it was the best time of my life
But if I remember correctly I've never even experienced that

I may be shy, I may be dumb, I may not be good looking
But at least I have the will to help someone
And that's worth living for
Even if the world turns its back to you
So I just hope to leave
This way my illusions of heaven
Won't turn to be hell